Meant2BeMommy's Page

I am the mother of a 17 year old and a 1 year old. What a span! The mysteries of the Universe are vast and there was certainly wonder in my mind when I discovered that I was pregnant at age 39 during a time when I had one mental focus: to go to graduate school. Oh well! Once I resigned myself to accepting the pregnancy that I was unprepared for, I did everything I could to ensure a healthy pregnancy even though I was already a health nut. I researched everything imaginable about preparing for my baby's arrival and even very much wanted a midwife and to birth my baby at home in the tub or birthing pool. The out of pocket expense was a concern and then lo and behold, life had a different plan for me anyway. I had the delivery contrived from what I would consider my own personal hell. I felt robbed of my natural experience and I was bitter, resentful and full of guilt for not being able to give my baby a gentle birth experience. What I ended up having was a forced c-section at Cape Fear Valley. I literally felt accosted by the staff from start to finish but thank God, I suppose I am past that now. However, I must say that I still strongly believe that were it not for inordinate medical intervention, my baby would not have had to spend 5 days in the NICU. Nevertheless, she is now on the path to complete health, my little Spitfire!

My 17 year old graduates from high school on June 12, 2009 and will begin her college career. I have remained at home with my baby and have done consulting and training for clients who wish to shed bodyfat. Relying on my vast experience as a trainer has provided me with an adequate and satisfying back-up career and also given me the flexibility that I desire for the sake of the baby.

My boyfriend and I do not cohabitate although he desires that. Considering that I have had two children out of wedlock, I am still something of a prude. Even more than that, I have a nomadic streak that such that I find it undesirable to be confined and tied down. I would not want to marry only to discover that the marriage itself did not work or that I had married for the wrong reason. Furthermore, I still want to do things like travel and experience all that life has to offer. If I were to marry now, I would feel stifled.

In any case, may I introduce my family: